well i ought to be overjoyed. i have amath and chem paper 2 on my birthday. anyone wants to offer their congratulations? SHIT MAN! )))): life sucks, seriously.

mugmugmug - ing away, (: (not)

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:49 PM

hey! three papers over. (: anyway is anyone proud of me or not! i feel like i havent blogged for ages. haha, what an achievement. but anyway, new template again. im actually liking this one a tad bit more than the rest i find on blogskins. haha. dunno, something just attracts me to it.

anyway, im feeling weird, i keep typing wrongly. i think its cause i havent used the keyboard in ages! haha, good sign, good sign.

okay, about the papers. not bad enough for me to cry over, yet not good enough to make me jump for joy. ss was rather okay, i guess. but i completely screwed the seq part. im actually thinking i might get 0 for part a cause i answered totally off course. they asked about the points on agreement in the merger, and i answered on the federal elections. wow. yay me. and then part b was equally disastrous, because the correct event that caused the race riots was NOT the freaking malay solidarity convention, but its this heading under RACE RIOTS. and i went to say that it was the MSC that sparked off the race riots. how many marks will they give for a WRONG factor, when i said that that WRONG factor is the MOST IMPORTANT??

hahhahah, im so silly, i feel like killing me.
oh, come to think if it, chinese compo was terrible. i wrote some shitface primary school story that might have gotten me a high mark in primary 4. HAH! thats saying something, eh.

then today english. all i can do is cross my fingers and pray hard. i just sealed my fate for my L1, in case you all didnt realise. cause theres no way i can take higher chinese instead. and the worst thing is, i dont think i did much better here than in the midyears, it felt rather the same you know? and i got like b4 for mid years, i think. sheesh.

stop nagging at me you. how annoying. you keep repeating the same thing over and over again, like i didnt hear you the first time. you say i dont answer when you say something to me, then what about yourself? sometimes people talk to you you also dont answer right? BEWARE BEWARE... whatever.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:44 PM

hey. studied with audrey after school today, at mp library. (: we ended up listening to the sermon in her mp3, it was by xuan's pastor! (: I LOVED IT oh my. i was smiling through the whole thing. I feel so inspired, i really want to go to church. i really want to experience the whole thing. i've been to certain services before, in primary school. but i had not accepted Christ then, so i didnt pay attention, and the sermons meant nothing to me. today was the first time i listened to a sermon as a Christian, every word meant so much to me. i truly feel blessed to be a child of God. ((((:

i think after Os or something i will try to go, i guess i'll just have to tell my father then. (: but i know God will help me through it. My father doesnt object i think, he just wants me to follow my family, but he's gotta see that as impossible right? cause there's no way im gonna turn my back on Jesus, who saved me. the probability is a big fat 0!

im so touched by God's everlasting love. i feel so secure, so safe, so comforted in His arms. (: the pastor mentioned in his sermon how we should embrace everyone, love everyone. (: like, when someone says something bad about you, you let them, and love them. its seems like such a difficult thing to do, but if we think about it, its actually so so simple. all we have to do, is love.

He who dwelleth in love, dwelleth in God, and God in Him. :D

i dont care what people will say, im running after you!
(:
i dont care what they say about me its all right, its all right.
i dont care what they think about me its all right, its all right
cause i love You, i'll follow You, You are my, my life
and i'll read my bible and pray, i will follow You all day!

-i feel so warm, i feel God's arms around me. i feel so HAPPY, and i really hope that God will touch all of your hearts, know that no matter what happens, Jesus knows, Jesus cares, Jesus understands. He is there protecting you from harm. He is there to take away your cares, if you'd only surrender them to Him. Nothing that you do, can make Him close the door!

(: because of His great love, He gave His only son.
Everything was done, so we'd come.

ahhh, to those of you who had bothered reading this entire entry, i do hope it touched you, i hope after this you'd all be saved. (: turn to God!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:17 PM

(: okay okay, im going offline after i type this post. haha, thats me. im unstoppable when it comes to the computer. i think im addicted, addicted to changing my template twice every week or so, addicted to blogging everyday, addicted to looking for new blogskins (nice ones). you should think id have some self control, but no. i dont, and its true.

okayyy. today=uneventful.
after school lunched with phoebs once again, and nissa. we ate in the canteen today. the chicken rice was as sour as ever with the chilli. i havent eaten that chicken rice in ages. prolly cause i dont like the sour chilli taste, which kinda spoils the taste of the rice. but if i dont put the chilli it'll be bland and untasty. hmmmm.

i bought a painty marker today. :D
and haribo. thats my all time favourtie sweet. its perfect for my tastebuds. haha.

what should i study today? something in my little brain is telling me to get started on something else other than ss/bio. hurhur. yes, thats what ive been studying for 2 weeks now. theres only chem history lit and emath to worry about. amath i think the tuition will settle it for me so no need to worry.

CHEM- im on the verge of giving up, i think i'll just do my best, but i wont force myself if i really cant, not like im ever gonna take it into my l1r5 eh? haha, big joke.

HIST- err, may i say that this is the only subject i havent touched? so im guessing you know what this means, combined humans DOWN.

LIT- i dont know, i feel quite okay for lit now. hmm, i havent gotten down to serious note making though.

EMATH- SJI paper was a killer, i dont know why, i felt like crying while doing it. it kinda snapped me back to reality. i have to study for emath like crazy, i really want to score here cause my other subjects are more or less gone case lah. ditto english.

higher chinese? just give me a c6 PLEASE!!! im seriously doubting i can make it for this subject.
1. i've only passed 2 outta many compos that adela marked.
2. my cloze passage skills are seriously lacking
3. i dont understand my comprehensions most of the time
4. my chinese vocab sucks, and when they ask us to give the hanyu pinyin for the word i think chances are i wont know how its pronounced and these are usually worth 4 marks or so (cause they'll ask 2)
5. i cant answer feeling questions
6. i cant read chinese in sentences. i have to read it in chunks and piece them together slowly.

woohoo. so a c6 will do just fine for me. PLEASE LET ME PASS HIGHER CHINESE OH MY! i need my 2 bonus points and i think if i pass i dont have to take chinese in jc. cause my chinese got a2? is it? haha. oh well whatever.

okay, study time. (: mug hard people, this is a difficult time but lets have confidence in ourselves MAN!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 4:22 PM

today after school i had bio tuition/remedial with miss tay! (: now ive got the objectives of every chapter, and somehow ticking those items off the list makes me feel reassured, not so " everything is all in a mess". (: im like that. i like making lists, counting things to do, stuff like that. i know xuan knows that im like that. haha. but it works for me.

then, after bio i went to eat prata with phoebs. had paper prata again! (: still so sugary, crisp and sweet. the most wonderful thing i ever tasted. and me the pig had 2 bowls of tau huay as well. Then phoebe told me about something her cell group leader shared with her that day. she brought all her certs to show them, from kindergarten to poly. then she said, "im showing this to you all not to show off, but to let you all see, you get to know me, NOT MY CERTS. same thing with God, He looks at you as a person, not as how many certs you have/what material possesions or what not. so, dont be too worried about your studies, and forsake God just because you need to study or drift away because you get too caught up in what may seem important, but actually isnt compared to your relationship with God."

which brings us back to the statement, The closer you live to God, the smaller everything else seems.

(:(: im in such a good mood, even though every now and then things do not go the way we want them to, or go bad, everything will be fine.

what're problems here on earth compared to the big things we have waiting for us in Heaven? its like a person saying to God, "God, i know you have a mansion for me up there, but theres this leak in my house and i really really cant get it fixed and im so so so so so so so so so so so scared that my entire house will collapse and i will have no where to go, Help me, Lord, help me help me help me! " it sounds hysterical doesnt it?

our problems here on earth are taken away the minute we pray to God, we may not realise it, but if we truly believe that that is true, we're already released from them. for if we believe somthing is gonna be alright, and truly feel free from worries, even though things may not be really 100 % alright, its the same being free from worries when the thing is really 100 % alright! RIGHT? does that make sense to any of you? haha.

it does to me, though. (: i just feel so happy to be a child of the MOST HIGH, and i really wanna spread the word.
cast all your cares on Him, for He cares for you. DEEPLY. (:

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:11 PM

i decided to upload pictures. (:

zany parade (:

audrey, who i cant live without. (:


anne and char (:


and phoebe lim! (:(:(:



AL!














LOVE (: a bunch of roses to you!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 4:44 PM

i went a little nuts with online quizzes. hhaha
(:

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out. Your heart is open to where ever love takes you! Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking What turns you off: fighting and conflict Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

You Communicate With Your Ears

You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker. What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions. You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself. Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod.

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge. In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead! And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in. Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

You are 73% Virgo

You Are 32% Obsessive

You tend to have a few obsessive thoughts, but you generally have them under control. Sometimes your worries keep you up at night, though they usually don't interfere with your life.

(:

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:59 PM

(: i have tuition in 15 minutes. i changed my template, yet again. this time it features lex and clark from smallville. (: actually i like all the actors/actresses in that show. i watched till the previous season, but not the new one showing now. i kinda missed the first episode so i didnt have the heart to watch without head/tail. i guess i'll buy the dvd when it comes out. haha. (: i want the lost2 dvd also, and desperate housewives. haha.

why am i still talking about tv when prelims are 1 week away? i think im mad, btw. seriously have no discipline. well, things will turn out fine in the end, i just know it. haha, who am i kidding?

at least i dont have to worry about revising amath, cause i got this tutor. (: haha. i have confidence in her, that she'll help me well.

oh yes. FOURNINE WON ZANY yet AGAIN! (: yay us! go go go 4e9! can we ever stop being so divine? hahah.
anyway, i was a heroooo today! (: so cool okay we had so much fun doing the routine in front of everyone. i especially loved the last part where we all went DIVINE NINE and raised our hands like hitler. hahah. (:

I LOVE 4e9!!!

go 4/9 9 9
cause we're 4/9 9 9
go 4/9 9 9
cause we're 4/9 9 9

(: 4/9 WE'RE THE BEST, YEAH!

hahaha, im so so so so in a good mood today! anyway after that i went for lunch with anne at the jooseng coffeeshop. haha. daddy was being a pest! well, i cant be bothered.
we walked and walked and walked cause the bus we took took a turn which was not heading to our house so we dropped and walked and now my legs hurt like crazy!

heehee. our last cross country in tkgs. its sad we wont be able to dress up for zany again, its the only time we can dress up like idiots and not look stupid. (:

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 3:48 PM

i want to smack myself in the face but it will be painful. ): this is WRONG, i HAVE to study. i HAVE to !!!
anyway, i think im losing it. i got very extremely scared in school today cause i was trying to list out the chapters, and after i finished i looked at the paper and was like, WHAT! this is terrible this is terrible. i have 150-ish chapters left to study! AND ITS 13 DAYS TO PRELIMS.
im going insane im losing it.

and YET i dont have enough self-discipline to get my ass down to studying. I CANT GO ON LIKE THIS I CANT I CANT!!!
-Lord please help me.

okay, relax, be calm.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:23 PM

immmmm nnoooooooooot
stttttuuuudddddyyyyyiiiinnnggg!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:20 PM

i changed the colour scheme of my template, i think it looks so fresh! (: and clean, and bright, and clear, compared to the green. (: yah, im glad i did. took me longer than i expected though. all the colour changing in adobe. and for some reason the "let's play make believe" part couldt come out right int he new image, and i had a brilliant idea to drag it from my old psd. file green. (:

moral of the story: always save a copy of your psd. files. (:

its bedtime. sleeptight all.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 10:25 PM

hello humans. (: greetings from planet earth.
): man!
sunday. both tuitions over. btw, i saw it like, again.
gosh. i just dont understand why why why why WHY!!! let me tell you, im not in good mood now. how on earth am i supposed to accept the fact that____ ?? maybe im thinking too much. i certainly hope so, or it'll crush my fragile little heart.
hmm, ive never felt this way before. its a completely fresh emotion in me. and this isnt a great time to be thinking of these kind of things, with o levels coming up and all. argh! shit man, this sucks.

rarrr, i wish i could just change the way things are, but how do i MAKE him? goshgoshGOSH!

-i should stop acting lovesick.
im reminding myself of olivia, btw. haha. SHEESH.

its terrible. i know im gg around in circles now. haha, forgive me im not feeling all calm/serene now.

whywhywhy!! ))))):
i want you so much yet i dont know how to let you know. i cant seem to get you off my mind. everything i think of, i think of you. everything i do, you're on my mind. what happened to composed clarissa? this has been happening for so long, and now then i start feeling this way.
-the green eyed monster got the better of me, thats why.
since i saw what i saw, something errupted inside of me. something i never ever felt before. jealousy? i want you so bad but theres nothing i can do to make you mine.

ahh, i'll get through this.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:06 PM

(: a few days back i watched this show on star movies called girl, interrupted.
its a show about a group of girls living in a mental institute, and then main character, susannah, who got herself landed inside by swallowing a whole bottle of aspirin in attempts to kill herself, tries to escape, with her psycho friend Lisa who is ten times crazier than her. lisa is mean, and she doesnt care about other's feelings. she insulted this other girl till the girl got so upset and hanged herself. susannah finally realises that this was wrong, and gives up plans to run away. she finally recovers the correct way and is released from the institute.

its a disturbing show, but its intriging. (:

okay, lunch is done, and im going to eat.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 1:12 PM

okay this is to inform everyone that i completed nothing on my post yesterday that i said i would complete, because my silly crampOs did not disappear and i slept.

n{AccomplishedItems} = empty set

haha sets. (: i've finished that chapter long ago, but i think its gone rusty.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:29 PM

hey. font size increased due to the fact that i realised that its rather illegible on other comps, and cannot be increased by ctrl + . (:

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:48 PM

well well. im using my sissy's mac to blog! (: very nicce very nice. im not quite used to it though. okay the reason im using it is cause well, my bloody thing came yesterday after being missing in action for rather long, and im suffering from agonising pain in my uterus area. so, im rather unable to move right now and i think im gonna sleep later or something.

i hate second days. second day=cramps=heavy flow=UGHHH!

shitfaced menses. ):

alright, i like this powerbook alot!!! argh. haha, i guess if i do well daddy will want me to take over this one, but im not sure if i want to use this or get a sony vaio, because the sony vaio is such a beauty and i want a red laptop. (:

RED! deep red. have yall seen it? its utterly gorgeous.
!!!!! YEAH MAN! im gonna get it, i promise myself. but, how how how! haha

well, at least im gonna study full swing my ss and history today, get some things covered you know? like, venice so i can do my seq. actually i already completed venice, somehow, gonna start the seq soon. then im gonna study ss sec4 things, try to complete 2 chapters there. then go on to historyhitler.

all that humans just reminded me, english teacher is still daaaaangggling in mid air, i dont really wanna think about it, or p&c, or linear law, or chem for that matter. i just dont want to bring myself to that kinda TORTURE. but i know that i have to get down to it somehow, and i guess i will,haha. one day!

okay we're edging nearer and nearer to prelims and the big os, may God bless everyone in sec4 in singapore taking the exams. friends, dont fret, for God is with us all, and you know no harm may befall us while under His watchful eyes. woohoo!

(: now audrey just reminded me of the stupid chinese friends worksheet compo thing we're supposed to do. another something to add to my busy day! the life of a sec four student in singapore, there you have it. BIG Os STINK!

freaking shitt.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 12:47 PM

oh my isnt ja the cutest! haha, she doesnt know what shes talking about half the time. HAHAHAH.
after rahimah sang, she started her comments right? then she got stuck lah dont know how to continue. then she went very very goofily, " haaa-ppy national dayyyy! " hahah, its hilarious!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 9:33 PM

damn. its like this big fat bubble just floating above our heads now. i dont wanna blame you but, what we really can do without now is your excessive crazy attacks. stop yelling for no reason, its disturbing. why cant you settle matters peacefully? always shout shout shout. gosh. screammmming at the top of your lungs like its gonna help matters.

-i do hope you're playing the fool now, you know that? freakkkking shiiiiitt. but if you are it just goes to show what a freaking skitzo you are. but i'd rather admit that than have what i done want to happen happen. ):

anyway, happy birthday to my dearest dearest SINGAPORE! i love you to bits and pieces! haha. its quite funny cause gurmit singh had to leave halfway from the parade to rush to sg idol. its showing now btw, rahimah is singing, i dont like her. too bad.
(:

what a day!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 8:28 PM

its a jolly happy sunday! (: haha. just came back from bio, okay not just came back. ahhh, not much to say. haha. byebye

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 1:36 PM

(: im so in love with my phone! oh my! its the best okay? i seriously never thought i'd love any phone this much. its really the best phone i ever had! (:(:
i like, downloaded many themes for zedge.net (recommended by audrey ) and now my phone looks so pretty and everything! and i put like many songs in too! but only problem is im only left with 19.8 mb in my memory card! i think i need to get a bigger one! haha. its the default 64 mb one now. so small right the space!! but im happy im happy!!!! WHEE!

never felt so good the past couple of days. (: well, i already knew that it'd happen right? its so predictable.how can things be okay when someone doesnt believe it? argh. whatever lah. im past caring.

whatever whatever whatever WHATEVER!
can she stop venting her anger on us? i mean come one we're not the ones who made her upset. now shes convinced that everyone's out to pissify her. gosh.
funny how when a person meets a crisis she'll think everything is going wrong. that is the most stupid mistake anyone can ever make you know? cant people just look into the better good in life? why do we always think as if the world is collapsing around us? why cant we see that there is actually something to live for. when someone upsets us, we take it out on other people. then those who have nothing to do with the entire matter get hurt by your attitude. enough man. dont you know how much is upsets us? dont you know that you are making us feel uncomfortable? why cant you just GROW UP for goodness sake.
acting so immaturely. like a lovesick teenager. YOU'RE DELUDED. everything that happens now you think its something wrong, its this its that.
-YOURE HURTING US OKAY??

i just want you to be back to normal, is that so difficult? now we're all at your imagination's mercy eh?
-SHIT HAPPENS

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:19 PM

(: yay. im using my fathers old phone now. its the nokia 6280, which just happens to be 3g. but i dont think he'll be bugging me on it cause he doesnt usually use that feature.i used to hate that phone you know, but now i suddenly like it, cause the pictures are so clear and nice!!
i just came back from anne's place and i watched pirates there. but unfortunately the disc want complete and when babosa or however you spell it came out i was like -OH MY! then it stopped. i was like, what! haha. talk about keeping me in suspense huh.

oleh! theres lost tonight!
(:(: HOOOORAY!


oh, im very in love with the song "to love you more" by celine dion. her voice is like whoa. the last part of the song she just went on and on and it was so beautiful!
go listen!

hahahaha.
-and goodbye. :D

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:46 PM

hehheh. new template! (: i'm liking it, alot alot. haha. i think im crazy, btw. like, seriously. prelims are at my doorstep, literally. and as im typing this im hearing lots of naggggs from mummy. blahblahblah. im hating the noggs. really. the empty threats, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH i'll study after my bath okay??? what the hell. talk about irritating the shit out of me.

roarrr. alright. i need NEED my leisure time okay? Os are coming down on me HARD! i think im gonna burst from the stress, the studying!! i cant wait for it to STOOOP.

sorry for the multi syllabuses, im feeling rather low at the moment.

I GIVE UP
no more feeling sorry for me.
i feel rather free actually, its like releasing myself from something thats been bugging me for so long.
goodbye, sweet misery.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:45 PM