(: a series of unfortunate events! man that show is depressing. haha. but its a good show, good show.
TUITION DAY today. woah, front WRONG back WRONG right WRONG! (:(: it was hilarious, letty! haha.

yes, yes.
bbqed sotong for dinner! YIPEEEEEEE ! ! !

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 8:01 PM

yo. my brain juices are running dry on what to start my post with. haha, its getting rather boring starting it out with hey, hello, hi, the usual stuff.
you know what?
today was another melancholic day at school. the stupid number 5 keeps popping into my brain for no reason, and that reminds me that its only 5 weeks to prelims. okay i should shut up.

my ear is healing btw, i have eg-zee-ma. how on earth do you spell it? ah no matter anyway i dont care. so, im just waiting for it to heal completely. yah.
(:

oooh theres this girl, who is my sister's friend. shes this BIG FAT copycat okay? hahaha, her friendster profile is like, direct copy of my sisters senior's one. its plain evident. and her captions are all the same as my sisters. shes like a stalker or something, how frightening.

WOAH. you asked me a question, but the answer lies in you.
its pretty obvious right?
now i cant even say the words i wanna say.

big os suck all happiness out of someone, like dementors do.
ohohoh. you know when i read prisoner of azkaban, i was er, rather young. and i didnt understand it the first time i read it. the dementor part, i guess i wasnt focusing on the words i was reading, and i ended up thinking dementors were chocolate, cause you know, after harry fainted on the train, lupin gave him chocolate. and harry asked, what's that or something. he was actually asking about the dementor, then i thought he was asking about the chocolate, then lupin said dementor. so i thought the chocolate was called dementor. HAHA, how silly of me. well, i found out my folly soon enough.

(: back to the days we were young and innocent.
-we cant go.

Still so constant, elliott.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:50 PM

picture this:
a little girl looks ever so longingly at the little stuffed animal she would love to hug at night, and everytime she goes into the shop, she just stares at it, but she darent tell her mum to get it for her. this is because everytime she does, her mum will ignore her and sometimes scold her in public, yelling at her to stop bugging her. the little girl gets so afraid that she just stares at it, without saying a word.

oh, but the mum knows she wants the toy, she just doesnt want to get it for her. time passes so slowly, and soon the girl finds herself thinking, why on earth am i still pining for something i never will get? i might as well give up on it already, forget about the toy, even though it will be difficult.

then out of the blue one day, the mum tells her she'll buy the toy for her. the little girl is elated, she's crying out inside in joy. shes excited and cannot wait to buy it.

but then, the mum suddenly changes her mind, and says she decided not to buy it for her. there was no reason she changed her mind, the little girl had not misbehaved. the mum simply didnt feel like buying it for her any longer, the little girl sinks into depression again, but inside her, this glimmer of hope still doesnt want to leave, she keeps on praying that one fateful day, she might get that doll.

-and it pains her so so so so much to pine for it, but she just cannot stop.


what a tragic tale.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:50 PM

hello. (: arghhh. WHAT a boring day at school. only lesson i enjoyed was lit. i just love lit lah, okay? twelfth night is really great, i feel so lucky im doing it.
i bought 2 new notebooks, one for bio one for chem. if i can master chem properly these 5 weeks or so, i think i might do chem in jc together with bio, but that kinda is impossible, but i have to, to fulfill my lifelong dream of becoming a gynae. but i should stop talking about it, because the probability of me doing that is maybe 1/100 so. aiyah!!

caught in the middle. ): seriously have no plans whatsoever about what im gonna do in life, the future is mine to decide but thing is, i dont know what i want or what i can do! shit this sucks.

anyway. on a happier note, i changed my template yet again. (: also, we're about to complete twelfth night, which leaves me with a plenty of time to study the english teacher (which i have yet to touch).

im still online at this hour btw, but miss yeo said i have to pace myself, like cannot stop all leisure at once cause im a person who's very very accustomed to alot of leisure time, and if i stop all at once, i'll feel VERY MISERABLE. i dont want myself feeling miserable now do i? haha, no.

tonight im gonna study emaths, then complete alkanes and maybe if i can take it, alkenes. then i'll go to sleep. yes, clarissa sleeps at 10 plus every night. i need beauty sleep. aiyah, im gonna try lengthen it now, but slowly.
-GO GO JIA YOU!!!

heeeeheeeheee.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:56 PM

i wish we could turn back time man, back to the days we were so happy and carefree in primary school. with no o levels to worry about! or maybe, simply to times before any sort of disaster strikes, to make sure it doesnt strike. (: okay, yesterday a disaster happened to me, oh my GOSH. i think any phone in my hand, something will surely happen to it, im serious.

so. went to parkway with XUAN after band yesterday, we were 2 rather broke humans, trying to save alot of money cause we both needed to buy presents. (: so we went to treats, and i bought chicken rice which cost a WHOOPING $3.20. HAHA. (: funny how that amount can seem so much when you're cashless. so, anyway. since i spent money on food i coulnt afford a drink. ahem. so i happily took out my bottle to drink. then, before i put it back into my bag, i didnt close it tight. AND GUESS WHAT WAS INSIDE MY BAG??? yes. a rather important and precious possesion of mine called my handphone, ( which happens to not be waterproof, as all handphones are not ).

when i realised it, i hurriedly took out my SOAKED phone from my bag and to my horror, the part where the camera flash was supposedto come out from was now emitting this long stream of turquoise blue light. i have never seen this light before, and my phone looked like it was possesed. so anyway, rushed to the toilet, dried it up, and then the calender of my phone popped up and started moving from one day to another. then the screen started flashing, and fogging up, and when xuan tried to call me, the this flashed WHITE and switched of, and it couldnt accept my sim card hereafter.

but on the bus it suddenly could switch on and could work properly, but the battery was out. so i came home and tried to charge it, but it couldnt be charged. thus, it is sitting on the table now, rather unalive.
-the death of my phone.

I WANT TO SCREAMMMMM.
shitman.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 12:17 PM

arghh. (: im kinda glad that theres this one last performance with the band (in singapore at least) haha. (: i keep telling myself that it isnt over yet lah, stil lgot japan, if i manage to get 15 for my prelims that it. yesyes, i can hear people snickering. haha.
-HOW ON EARTH AM I SUPPOSED TO GET FIFTEEN POINTS?
well, firstly, i have the King of Heaven living in me. not only will He see me through this entire chicken exam, He'll be with me when im studying, keeping me focused, helping my brain absorb as much of the literary nutrients im reading, and helping me remember them! with God by my side, i have absolutely nothing to worry about. :D

BY GOD'S GRACE I WILL DO IT! (:

so needless to say, i have to work 471081635471 times harder than what i am now! somehow theres this BADBADBAD thought in me that keeps telling me can la can la, sure can in the end one, but the thing is, im not making any plans, not doing anything. RAWR i feel like hitting myself.

tkgssb, no matter what happens, will definately have a place in my heart, no matter where i go, no matter what other band i play in (if i join band in jc / if i make it to a jc)! i almost dont wanna join another band cause i never want to lose the feeling of being part of tkgssb and tkgssb only, like ifi join another band it just wouldnt be the same .

rahh. anyway, im suddenly feeling so funny, kind of like this bubble of happiness, i dont know why either.hahaa

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:42 PM

oh my chicken shit. i totally didnt study during supervised studies today! im going to change my template soon.
-oh the superficiality of it all.

im still not over the fact that we got second. I JUST FEEL SO BLESSED! rahh. today my sister called home and i picked up and she said, "who is this?" and i, thinking she was crazy said, " YOU DONT KNOW WHO I AM?" and she said, "can i speak to my sister please?" like ROAR. i felt like killing her. haha.

anyway today there was a lit ca lah. (: hmm, since im told not to divulge anything i shall not divulge anything. it was tough for me, had nothing to write and stuff. ah, whatever. and im positively gonna get zero for my tingxie. woohoohoo. :D it was a complete flop. comeon, how am i supposed to write the word when i have absolutely no idea what adela was spouting. gosh.

trail run is tomorrow, I CAN DO IT! (: ooh yeah, i wont die on the third round, like i always do, i promise. haha.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:06 PM

its cruel that we have to seperate, after we've been batchmates for our entire secondary school life. i thank God that He gave me these best 4 years of my life. im just feeling so emotional now. when they announced the results, i felt this feeling of sadness. no distinction. then God made me a happy girl once again, He blessed tkgs and embraced everyone of us! tears were on the brink of springing to my eyes when the truth of the results sank in. we did it. we did what we never thought was possible for us. i actually felt like crying, tears of joy. but i didnt. i held back the tears, but inside im dying with the thought that this feeling will never come back to me, not in tkgssb it wont. leaving band feels so surreal. i dont ever want to leave my beautiful batchmates, you guys really make my whole band life as sweet as honey.

-so we'll be playing next week too, i think this might be the last time we perform with tkgssb, in singapore at least. someone once said, "tkgssb will make a comeback, in the 2007 syf competition". no need to wait for that. the fact that we did it even before syf is exhilarating. the best part isnt the percentage we got. its the part where we brought tkgssb up and out again. (: SO AMAZING.

im just so glad, so glad. oh, this is pure bliss.
screaming my lungs out, jumping up and down, smiling FANTASTICALLY, i never felt so warm and elated, so blessed to be a child of the Most High God. because of Him. its all because of Him. :D

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:31 PM

OH MY GOSH OH MY GOSH. when we listened to the other bands perform, we seriously thought there was no way we could beat them to the top three, but oh we did, oh we did. (: (: (: (: im just so elated i cant believe it. turns out no band got gold with distinction. and we lost to maris stella by o.4. anyhow, im overjoyed! doesnt matter that we didnt get first la, in our hearts we should know that we did our best! YEAH MAN THREE CHEERS FOR TKGSSB!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:02 PM

hey. okay, i'll blog about yesterday. happy yesterday that is.
supervised studies, found out band ended at 430! haha. so i happily went to join batchies to er, chill. (: yeah. talked and sat around, laughed much. then we started taking photos. (: jump and artistic shots. i posted them on friendster and im so glad about my editing! hhaha. i loved every single shot we took, i really felt so happy and just put all the unhappier thoughts behind me.

so today, band. blessed day. what i predicted came true, and what the hell i know its gonna start again, but i've already gotten used to it. whatever. sometimes it comes to a point where i just dont give a shit anymore. anyhow. okay. my family, apparently, won a $1000 shopping voucher for tampines mall. OH MY GOSH! im gonna go mad okay? (: SWATCH. and mommy said she wanted to trade in my phone, but im not sure if daddy will let, hmmm.

COMPETITION IS TOMORROW! whatever happens, we'rea ll in this together, eh? (:

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 8:41 PM

enough is enough. there is a limit to how much a person can take, okay?

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 7:14 PM

haha i told xuan i'll blog about this, but i forgot completely in the last post. (: during bio, we had this prac test lah. and we had to put this measuring tape uder our armpits and around our er, chest area!!! haha. to measure the length when we inhale and exhale. hahaha. (: i just couldnt do it! was laughing too much! oh my lucky this wasnt o level or i think the invigilator would chase me out of the room! it was so hilarious, everyone was laughing and couldnt stop. haha. we all looked so funny looking down and measuring our chests.

HAHAHAHHAHA, i dont think i'll stop thinking this is funny. retarded man! haha.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:52 PM

Angel in disguise - corrinne may
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'

But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea

But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and I start to fly

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise

Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.

im in love with this song.(: its so meaningful! i was listening to the diana ross version of if we hold on together in the bus today. and then it struck me, im really leaving tkgssb. all those times i took for granted being part of the band, the times i hated it, the times i felt like quitting and giving up, now it all seems worth it that i didnt stop. i really love tkgssb oh my Gosh. it gave me friends or as we always call it, batchmates who really stood by my side and laughed and cried with me. (: XUAN AUD WANYUAN SIHUI CHARMAINE SHEENA ASNIRA CHOONRUI, no matter what happens, you guys will be the best batchmates anyone could possibly have. :D love muchy.

never again will i play with tkgssb once we leave, did that occur to any of you? OH MY!

anyways, we ran abit today, i think it was around 1.5 km or so. and we took 10 minutes or so. so if we multiply it or something, we'll all get 20 minutes. haha. FUNNY. at least i didnt give up half way. i dont know why, i just felt this adrenaline rush halfway while running and started running faster than my usual pace and that resulted in me feeling like puking after the run, AGAIN. i think mdm lee thinks im a weakling or something. haha. (: dont know what on earth im gonna do okay?
but, God is with us, He'll see us through.

just the thought that our problems are in the hand of someone so capable and mighty and strong makes me feel so calm! i love the feeling of burdenlessness so much! and i'll always feel it cause JC takes it away, all away.

im trying to make my white spare comp fit to use so i wont fight for my sister with the black new one. (: okay. so im downloading photoshop from limewire, i hope it works man. (: 28% go go! then i'll have to install microsoft office and stuffs. (;
something tells me that this plan of mine will work! (:

And all my friends who dont know You, i pray that You would save them too!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 6:04 PM

:D back once again from supervised studies. LAST NIGHT WAS WET. i cant believe whats happening to this family okay? but what the hell. i prayed at a synced time with xuan and although we didnt communicate, i just knew that my burdens were being taken away from me. every word i prayed, God was working. xuan's my number one confidant. :D

ahhh. i have like, 150 plus chapters to study for for all subjects. hahah. rather insane. O_O. (eyes big big)
i have kimchi seaweed. im happy.

oh my i think im losing my mind.

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 4:57 PM

hello! (: okay. band lunch udders tuition singapore idol comp sleep. 7 things that sum up my day. OH WELL.

anyway! tomorrow's band fiesta! its rather depressing that the last song we're gonna perform/play for tkgssb is ROSA! oh my, sad bananas.

okay. :D oh well. -everytime i see paul twohill, i laugh.

:D FUNNY NESS! you know, he did like really badly for sec one two three and four, then o level apparently did superb or something. see. proof that miracles can happen! (:

im like, squeezing out my brain juices to think of what to type now. hmmm. oh. i cant wait to go to japan! :D BATCHIES!

-pleassse let us choose our roomates. goodness. cant imagine what will happen if dont get to choose. HAHA XUAN!

okay okay okay. :) this is incredibly forced so i think i should stop. hey blogging needs some inspiration also what! HUR

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 10:07 PM

i had one of the best nights of my life yesterday, and its all because He was with tkgssb on stage! every note i played, i played with a heart full of joy! I played for Him. It was because of Him that we did fine. it was because of Him that we all feel so blessed now. I FEEL BLESSED, so blessed, so happy, so glad, so insanely TIRED.

haha. :D yes. i couldnt keep my eyes open the whole of today. letting us come to school one period late doenst do much good if you ask me, i still couldnt get up. ): oh boohoohoo. BUT. SPIRITO was the best fun i ever had in band, not even bhf in sec one could be compared. i just felt the love for tkgssb, everyone inside, ms sia, mr ong, EVERY FREAKING PERSON! im gonna keep my promise, and buy my section sweets! BECAUSE DEAR FRIENDS, that note came out fine. it was because of Him i tell you. it was because of Him that i could play in that cold cold place, for the first time. He filled my night with joy, music in my heart, i just feel so so so so so so so ( X infinty) blessed. never will i get the same kind of satisfation okay? its all been such a great night.

a night i would remember all my life.

to some people, the gimmicks may have appeared stupid, retarded, spastic. but to tell you the truth, these people i feel are stupid killjoys. what matters is we had fun, so what if we look stupid? WE ENJOYED OURSELVES. its not our fault that some people do not have a sense of FUN in them. aiyah! its good to look goofy once in a while. :D

YIDDISH YIDDISH YIDDISH! i will shout the Y word with all my heart now that its over and i did it! :D :D :D :D :D
so happy to be part of spirito! so so so so happy.

and we played if we hold on together for encore. loved every second of it. its our last concert, and it really was nice to play it. i didnt really imagine that we were about to leave band. its all seemed so short, at the same time, so long since we've become part of the tkgssb family! seems like yesterday that we stepped into tkgssb, and my batch crossed paths, and now to think that we'll be seperating, so soon, just makes it seem so surreal. somehow i wish i could remain in this band forever, with the exact same people. WITH MY BATCH and section.

-its a bittersweet thing.
xuan: better er(you know) than expected? HAHA.

and to my wonderful wonderful batchmates: you guys are the best! seriously, i wouldnt do this with anyone else. i wouldnt trade you guys for the world. the short time we had together, those were the best days of my life. i never came to appreciate what you guys could do for me, how you could make me feel good after i feel terribly depressed. it was your it'll come outs that i had confidence that it'd come out that it came out. every single one of you made my night worthwhile. i really love you guys to the max. the hanging out at video world after band, the chilling we've done together. the laughing, the JOY and HAPPINESS you've brought to my life. this is definately one night i will never EVER EVER forget. the wonderful memories. the praying together, the encouragements we gave each other, the comforting when we were sad, everything. i wish i could KISS ALL OF YOU a thousand times. If i could choose another group of people to be my batchmates, i'd most definately choose you guys. YOU MAKE MY BAND LIFE HONEY SWEET. it just wouldn't be the same in another band, in another section. it just wouldnt be the same. I love every single one of you to every bone in your bodies! :D

all i hope now is for us to play well for nbc. i really really hope we'll do us proud. :D
GOD IS IN US ALL!

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:28 PM

spirito's tomorrow spirito's tomorrow spirito's tomorrow! shit man. thats all i can say lah, come what may, we'll enjoy ourselves. AH! BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY!

sheesh. i cant wait for after intermission! ARGGHHH. God bless tkgssb man!

oh man thats all i can think about now. im rather excited and all, but at the same time i feel this FEAR in me that wont go away! I know i should enjoy myself but i just cant relax okay! SPIRITO'S TOMORROW!!!!!!

i feel faint. GOSH! sorry, im like, damn scared and dont know what to do!
anyway.

new template again, i like this one, dont ask why, i just like it. (not for long)
studied lit for supervised studies today. the class is getting noisier okay? i really think it depends on the teacher to see if the students are noisy or not. though making a lot of noise while people are trying to study is real inconsiderate.

-i dont wanna do anything you tell me to. i want to do what i want to do, so just piss off alright? why should i listen to you huh? who are you to comment on what i do? seriously, you piss me off.

third last bet, positive qu d.
(: code language. feels good to know what im talking about when no one else does.
HAHA

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 5:58 PM

whoa i havent blogged in so long! :D but whatever, i think this is gonna happen more and more so, its a good thing i s'pose. it means that im beginning to snap to study mode! yipes.

band yesterday was depressing. oh man. i dont know what to do! ): there's band tomorrow again, i'm a tad bit relieved. kinda wish it were full day but never mind. everything is in a mess, it just seems so soon! SPIRITO! manmanman, freaks me out okay? its gonna be such a hectic day tomorrow, and on wednesday i guess we'll just do our best lah, see what happens. LET GO, LET GOD.

i was like, praying and praying during band yesterday, and i know God will see us all through this. :D because: there is nothing God cannot do, even in these kinda situations that seem so impossible and hopeless, He is there, ready to guide His children through. therefore, be not afraid, for God is with us. NOTHING TO FEAR, FOR HE IS NEAR!


audrey khoo gave me false hopes when she said she knew how to make my dream template. HAHA. audrey you're so cute. (:

so. after band yesterday went to parkway with batch, delifrance. im a messy messy girl with all that croissant. (: and they exploited me okay! im so sad. we're never gonna buy a jug of drink again because it isnt EQUALLY distributed! HMPH!

tuition, then went for dinner at crystal jade korean ginseng chicken and bbq at centrepoint! (: had bbq, chicken, sotong, prawn, fish, beef! :D saba fish ( which was really damn nice to eat ), and ginseng chicken soup! :) WHOA WAS A FEAST MAN! delicious delicious delicious! (:

First magazine's featured movie this month is pirates 2! (: MAN! JOHNNY DEPP IS DAMN HOT! hah, i cant wait to watch it!

alright, im gonna fly away now, happy reading my non existent entries until i blog again then. :D which wont be soon, (i think)

and thats all one my post is done, and i'll strive to please you everyday // 12:46 PM